i am just back from the church’s music practice. it was an awkward yet wonderful reunion. awkward because i wanted to express clearly how grateful and glad i was to be back and see their faces again…but to go to that level, i may need more time. wonderful because this is home to me. these people are my family. and i love each one of them as much as i love my own.
today, i got the same question repeated by many friends, “how was china?” the only answer i could give was, “it was fun!” i seriously have no idea how to answer the question better.
this morning, i slept in until 9:30am! that was the best record i’ve had since…oh, wow, let’s say it’s been a long time since i could actually sleep in. but it could be because i went to bed at 2:00am last night too.
anyway, i was up and decided to spend as much time as possible reading the Bible. the word of God came to me through the story of judah and tamar from genesis 38.
tamar is another woman in the bible who captivates me. her willingness to be vulnerable, steadfastness, perseverance and bravery kept the kingship line of Jesus continuing. she had to live together with 2 cold-hearted, irresponsible men (judah’s sons: er and onan). she was promised to be given to judah’s 3rd son when he came of age…but that never happened. she had to bear the weight of shame when she went back to live with her father when her 2 husbands died because of their wickedness. until one day she decided that she could no longer live as a victim anymore.
“she took off her widow’s garments and covered herself with a veil, wrapping herself up, and sat at the entrance to enaim, which is on the road to timnah. for she saw that shelah was grown up, and she had not been given to him in marriage. when judah saw her, he thought she was a prostitute, for she had covered her face.” genesis 38:14-15
her action alone was very unusual in the ancient days. it meant death if someone found out what she did (which later on they did, but there was a twist in the story). but what surprised me even more was that she was a canaanite. in those days, canaanite wasn’t very popular among the israelites.
this canaanite woman solely acted upon the urging of the Spirit. she could never have known what would become of her line…that kings and Savior would come from her womb. but she did what her heart told her to do. this woman gritted her teeth and carried the weight of shame so that God’s plan would be completed.
another woman of faith, who sacrificed so much for the cause.
and here, through tamar and judah’s lives, i learned…that we all fall short…but we have a choice to make…a chance to change the history’s fate.
what we do in response to God’s voice shapes our paths in the future.