Shoulds And Shouldn’ts

i am craving  for soft munchy chocolate chips cookies or even brownies. i think it’s time to bake some! 🙂

this evening i came home feeling a bit…perplexed. i think i might have gone on so long not bringing up the issues of my life to  God. when i sat down, i just felt the urge to read the Bible and pray. someone told me that praying is like breathing. i must’ve been holding my breath for a long time…that’s why i was suffocating.

there were many things i wanted to talk to God about. next year will be full of changes…and i’m not sure i’m ready to deal with that. did i ever tell you that i am accepted into the new position i applied for? in january, i will take my new role as a field communication specialist and no longer serve in the tour team. at the thought of it makes my stomach queasy a bit. please don’t get me wrong. i am excited to start a new journey…take on a new adventure. but i guess it’s the unknown that makes things look so daunting and scary. i am afraid that i may not be good enough for this. that i will fail. that is why i need to pray so hard.

there are also lots of plans i am making in my head like moving into a house, buying a car, finding roommates…all the while being more involved at church too.  i am also in constant frustration that i cannot master the karen language at the point i wish to see happen. i have also asked God for a new romance…a boyfriend…and that hasn’t happened yet. and i thought, “what am i supposed to do to make things happen?!” so i started outlining my plans. i should do this and i should avoid that. on and on, the list went…and i didn’t even bother stopping to ask God what did He think. 

the “shoulds” and “shouldn’ts” of my life blinded my eyes to the true desire of my Master. i learned a lesson from Him last week and realized i have put myself at the center of everything and creating plans around what i want to do. but the Lord showed me that when i can drop my shoulds and shouldn’ts, then it will be the real show happening according to His will.

and i don’t wanna miss His will in my life. putting my plans down gives me rest and peace.

not only do i need to pray to God, i also urge you to pray for me. i can’t explain it or tell you specifically what i’d like you to pray for. but do pray for me, will you? it is time of transition and revelation. He’s going to do something in my life…

oh, added to the random statement above – i am also craving for pancake with bacon, butter and maple syrup! mmm…


About Mink Gough

"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined the things that God has prepared for those who love him." 1 Corinthians 2:9 View all posts by Mink Gough

3 responses to “Shoulds And Shouldn’ts

  • sheedaalitalpur

    Nice Post I like your thoughts that when we drop our should and shouldn’t thats when we get close to our God.

  • monica @ transplanting me

    mink, you will be an amazing field communication specialist! i have no idea how tours will function without you, but God will provide. you are amazing and wise beyond your years!

  • Juli Jarvis

    Praying for you! I, too, pray for God to bring the right spouse for our boys especially, but so far — no progress in that area. You’re right; there is nothing we can “do” — it’s all in His hands. I need to wait upon Him and see Him do the things only He can do! Praying about your future and new responsibilities — how exciting, and I know God will give you the abilities you need. Here is a wonderful quote from my morning devotion:

    “Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10
    “Is there any note in all the music of the world as mighty as the grand pause? Is there any word in the Psalms more eloquent than the word ‘Selah,’ meaning pause? Is there anything more thrilling and awe-inspiring than the calm before the crashing of the storm, or the strange quiet that seems to fall upon nature before some supernatural phenomenon or disastrous upheaval? And is there anything that can touch our hearts like the power of stillness? For the hearts that will cease focusing on themselves, there is ‘the peace of God which transcends all understanding’ (Phil 4:7); ‘quietness and trust’ (Isaiah 30:15), which is the source of all strength; a ‘great peace’ that will never ‘make them stumble’ (Psalm 119:165); and a deep rest, which the world can never give nor take away. Deep within the center of the soul is a chamber of peace where God lives and where, if we will enter it and quiet all other sounds, we can hear His ‘gentle whisper’ (1 Kings 9:12). Even in the fastest wheel that is turning, if you look at the center, where the axle is found, there is no movement at all. And even in the busiest life, there is a place where we may dwell alone with God in eternal stillness. There is only one way to know God: ‘Be still and know.’ The LORD is in His holy temple; let all the earth be silent before Him.” (Hab. 2:20) L. B. Cowman, Streams in the Desert, 11/24

    I read that and thought, Wow — how much more powerful is our stillness before God than anything else we do all day! I understand that, because the rests in the music I play can be the most powerful of all, if done correctly. Last night we heard that my husband’s brother has been taken to the hospital and has even stopped breathing a couple of times, but was revived. I feel like we’re in a grand pause right now, waiting to hear of his passing. But this quiet moment is powerful, because God has given us extra time to pray for his soul.

    You were right to take the time to breathe quietly with God and place all before Him! Your whole life is in a large “pause” in many ways right now (as it is for Chris too) — but God is using this time to prepare you for the beautiful days He has planned in your future! Enjoy the music — notes and rests! It’s His symphony!

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