a month and a half of silence. and i have learned many great lessons. God brought me down to the darkest valley so that i would see Him as He truly is – not just a loving and kind Father but also the fearful and almighty God.
for the first 6 months, i thought everything would go well. i was overridden with pride. i assumed that my job in a new position would go smoothly just because i had the qualified skills. i thought that my relationship would be fresh and exciting. all imagination…
i have discovered more of my ugliness than i wanted to. but it was a necessary process. suffering isn’t always too bad. it opened my eyes to a new perspective of myself.
now the relationship i thought working out so well has come to a long pause…and maybe it is the end. and work…i didn’t pass the probation period. thankfully, i am given another chance for another 6 months.
i don’t know what i’m going to do yet if i don’t pass this probation. but for now i know that pride finds no place in a life of a Christian. God hates pride. and He uses every single way He can do to get rid of it in every nano factor in our lives.