“if by my death many would come live, then i will gladly die ten times over.”
– shoeshine pastor jungha kim
as i stroll life, there have been moments when i take a low dip and when i soar high. it is never stable. it never leaves me content.
it is always a puzzle to me – this life. God has never given me a straight answer. instead, He brings people into my life and teaches me.
today, i got an email from work suggesting that i should watch this video. (do watch it before you continue to read)
it is about the life of a korean pastor who shines shoes to sponsor seven children from all over the world. what caught my attention was how he died to himself and lived for Christ.
he is neither a man of wealth or health. he is just a servant of God. but when i looked into his eyes, i envied him for his richness. the sparkles in his eyes when he grumbled to God just how he was going to sponsor two more children; his frail voice thick with compassion as he prayed for the children’s future and the victorious smile as he preached the most precious word, “if by my death many would come live, i will gladly die ten times over.”
pastor kim saw the golden treasure in the world drenched with sins and poverty. and he reached out to take it for his own – this gift of death to self.
what he did was not noble in the eye of the world. he polished shoes – a lowly job. but in every hunch of his back, every drop of sweat and every shoe that shines gives hope, opportunity and bright future for his seven children…who would otherwise starve, work ’till their backs broke and wound up in a cycle of wretchedness.
pastor kim died to his pride so his beloved could live. just like Jesus.
how i struggle to live! but minus death, life equals zero.
dying to self is not a choice. like fall leaves dwindling onto the ground only to be trampled, our old bodies are ceasing every minute. it is a decision to make.
death is not the end. it is just the beginning of something greater.