“God’s kindness brings true repentance” — this has been something on my mind recently.
i have never met a man or known of a God so genuinely in love with an ugly person…a sinner like me. undeniably, we have two sides of us; one respectable and enviable among our circles of friends and another, the spiteful, unpleasant us. so much that we, ourselves, cannot believe we possess such traits…ones that are revealed when selfishness is at its best.
but God has a way to come through our thick heart.
have you ever been pressed into the raw reality of your own self — to feel every millimeter of your ugliness…to remember all the disgusting sins you have committed and wonder how you can still live with them? then the memory of a Man who is always by your side came back to you? the Man who loves you despite your lot of sins. the time we lie to our parents, murder our friends with jealousy or commit adultery as we surf internet, He is there…His love, unchanging.
how can He remain loving and so good to us?
this love breaks me. when i cannot live myself anymore, God reminds me that i am His beloved…that when He formed me, i was made “good”…and that His plan for my life is full of good things. and this love wants me to be better for Him. not for myself nor my reputation…for God who loves me…nonetheless.
“You didn’t think, did you, that just by pointing your finger at others you would distract God from seeing all your misdoings and from coming down on you hard? Or did you think that because he’s such a nice God, he’d let you off the hook? Better think this one through from the beginning. God is kind, but he’s not soft. In kindness he takes us firmly by the hand and leads us into a radical life-change.”
Romans 2:3-4 (The Message)